I constantly seem to have to reel my dreams back in. Not because I’m afraid that they are to big but because I have to put myself back in check and remind myself that what I’m dreaming about at that moment, isn’t really what I want.
Sometimes I start dreaming about the awesome studio I have on some uber chic downtown boutique drive. Placed strategically across from cool restaurants and a yummy Belgium chocolate shop (I always dream in chocolate). I dream of how I would design it and the employees and it starts turning into this fantastic little reality that I absolutely must have …and then… I have to slam my breaks and remind myself that the dream I was just running rapid with does not include a stay at home mom. That the full time working diva in my head would have to order ‘take out’ because she has no time to cook and pays tutors because she’s not there to teach. I’m most definitely NOT making any judgments on those who may have accomplished such a dream, heck I’m trying to steal their reality for a few moments of my own.
Sometimes it’s really easy to get caught up in a concept that at first glance may seem wonderful but upon further investigation exposes some horrible flaws that wreak havoc on our most precious priority – FAMILY! I’m just saying for me (this girl typing at this desk) that’s not the right dream. So I put things in perspective, slip the lavender scented sleeping mask down over my eyes and begin a new dream. They don’t get any smaller just more cohesive for the rest of my life which I have to remember is pretty dreamy with three beautiful children, a loving husband, the ability to learn and good health and that’s pretty great all on it’s own!