It all started when my plans for how 2014 would kickoff my epic-awesome-growth year were… stifled. (Well, in hindsight… maybe they weren’t!)
You see, we’ve decided to move. I know!! If you’ve been following my story, you know that only one year ago (almost to the day), I found out that my dream Christmas tree farm was going up for sale. We put an offer in the next day, and then the day we came home from my Thriver’s Mastermind Retreat in Florida, we moved in.
About 8 weeks ago, we were looking at house plans and getting excited about the home we’d be building on the tree farm. I climbed up on the roof with Taylor as he put the Christmas lights up and we stood there for a minute, his arm around me and we smiled at the idea that this would be the view from our master bedroom balcony.
Then everything changed…the practice that my hubby was planning and preparing to purchase for the past 2 years turned out to be something short of what we thought. We knew it wasn’t the right choice for our family, so we had to walk away.
That brought us to a crossroads. The hubs had an opportunity to start again and I can be a photographer and the Go4Pro girl anywhere, so we asked ourselves…
Is this where home is supposed to be?
For the last 9 years we have lived away from family. We lived in Hawaii and then Vancouver, WA. And last year we bought our Christmas tree farm with the plan to settle down out here in the country.
Until we found ourselves asking, is this where we are meant to be?
After a ton of soul searching, prayer, and lists of the pros and cons, we decided together that it was time for yet another move. It was time to go home to our families. Ultimately, we want to be there for them and right now the 3 hour drive makes that difficult. We also want our kids to grow up close to the people who love them the most.
So on Christmas Day 2013, we gave a special box to our families with an ornament inside that read, ‘Seattle will be our home again in 2014’.
It’s bittersweet. The Christmas tree farm was my dream, and for a short while I lived the dream. At first it made me sad to let it go – so sad that when the first offer came in, I couldn’t help but cry. But then I realized…
I thought that this farm was what I wanted, but I’m learning day by day that even more than that Christmas tree farm, I want to be there for the people who have been there for me. I want to teach my children that the real key to happiness isn’t just about making our own dreams come true, but in being an instrument in the happiness of others.
After all, isn’t that what I’ve chosen to do as a career? Help other photographers thrive?!
I am learning that…doors close, sometimes before we’re ready. And when it happens, you might be like me and find yourself needing a day (or more) to just cry and feel the loss. But ultimately, we have to get back up.
We have to believe that there is a bigger purpose waiting for each of us. I don’t just believe that, I know it.