“Please… Help me.” My face was buried in my hands as I stood in my bedroom. I had just walked back in the door and it was t0o much. I just couldn’t keep it together for another minute.
The tears that followed were the ugly kind, with the huge sobs. I am not a pretty crier, and I was grateful to be alone. I had to let it out.
I said a prayer in between the sobs…
“I don’t know what to do.
How can I do all of this?
I don’t know how to help her?”
Please… Help me.”
And then I felt the words, as if He stood right beside me. They came with confidence and hope and love… “Let’s get to work.”
So I wiped my blotchy face with my sleeve (something I hate seeing my kids do) and rubbed mascara from my lashes to my cheeks, and then did just that… I went to work.
Trying to be everything for everyone is no cupcake walk. One day we may feel like we’re on top of the world and we just can’t believe it’s this easy… Yet the next, feel so inadequate, so small – standing alone sobbing big, ugly (and loud) tears.
It’s a lot… We’re trying to be mothers, wives, artists, friends, home-makers, volunteers, entrepreneurs and… strong.
The boat will be rocked, for-every-single-one-of-us. Don’t think for one moment that you’re alone in feeling like you’re a little less than enough sometimes.
So if every once in a while you find that its just too much to bear and you’ve got to let it out… Let yourself. And then get to work and go back to being the amazing, courageous woman that you are.